Eeeek have totally neglected my writing recently, very bad!! BUT lots of stuff has been happening, I've been a very busy girl! I promise to be better from now on! My main reasons for not writing have been moving, TWICE in the time since I last wrote here... how rediculous is that? But it wasn't my choice per se, just the situation. On Thursday I should be moving finally into my new place, and staying there! Well, for now, anyway.

On a somewhat unrelated note, why are figs supposed to be sexy? I have never found them in the least sexy. Maybe I'm just too innocent to get that? Okay, so thats really unlikely. but it could happen. Maybe.

Anyway, too early for me to be writing coherently at the moment, but Ihave lots to tell... I'll write again soon, hopefully tomorrow, if I have time, and I will tell all.

Night night xx

I'm in big trouble. Last night I got persuaded to go out when I really shouldn't have, and to drink when it would have been smarter not to. But everyone does that once in a while, right?

And I ended up kissing someone that I really really shouldn't have, but whats a kiss between friends? So far, not so terrible. Only I ended up going home with him. And kissing more. And taking off clothes and touching and him doing a very good job of getting me off, thank you very much.

But even this wouldn't be so awful, if I didn't have a stupid love bite on my neck. There are certain people I am spending the day with today who will definitely question it. I have TRIED to hide it, so far I've been unsuccessful. And all I really want to do is curl up in my bed and sleep it all away. Unfortunately, not an option. So cross your fingers for me, maybe if I'm really lucky, I'll get away with it.

Why do I always get myself into these situations?

So I think you've probably noticed, I have a bit of a content warning before you enter the site. Not sure how easily exactly other people are offended, but I thought better be on the cautious side... and I think this post might make a few people feel uncomfortable. So if its not your thing, look away now...

He was kissing my neck in that way that really makes me tingle. It was very exciting; normally, I like to be in control of any situation, but with him, I don't have any choice. And for some strange reason, that turns me on. Majorly.

Then he pushed me up against this wall (we had, for various reasons, ended up outside, 'talking' on the street.) He is so take charge and 'I will fuck you whenever I feel like it' that it is very hard for a girl to say no. And to be honest, I didn't want to say no, even though I knew, for various reasons, i should. Suffice to say my favourite pair of jeans were ruined, I didn't even get to shag the guy, and we ended up not talking for about 2 months, the longest we have gone without speaking. So all round a terrible night.

But I thought I should mention it because 1) even though it was a terrible night, because of the mischief I got up to/didn't quite get up to with him, it is one of the best nights out I've had all year.

And 2) we are now talking again, sort of. In a very we pretend to be friends but really would like to fuck each other kind of way (at least I'm pretty sure that feeling is reciprocal). Which means that is very likely that B, as we shall call him, will pop up now and then. So you are forewarned!

And finally, in an attempt to bring some form of education into this otherwise pretty much pointless message... typing with fake fingernails is challenging, and slows you down a LOT!

As always, enjoy... and if you feel so inclined, share your impressions with me, I am eternally curious.

Your pumpkin xxxx

Still on my own... and thinking too much. The red wine probably isn't helping too much, but it tastes good! It is very unlikely I will post this frequently all the time, but once in a while, when I am alone, as I am now, and without good reading material, my over-thinking tendancies will cause some trouble.

So some other things you might like to know about me are...
somebody very VERY important to me, we shall call him D, is getting married. And I've been to weddings before, and I've even enjoyed some of them, but I am SO excited about this particular wedding, because he means so much to me, and I am in equal measures completely excited and utterly terrified that everything will go horribly wrong. I should also probably point out that the future wife is in fact completely and utterly lovely, therefore there is no reason to worry. But, worry I do. It's my job.

The second, quite important thing I should probably mention is that there is another person, that I'm close to like D, perhaps even more so, and we should speak of him here as M. I have always got on with him very well. We have the kind of secret memories that are forged in childhood and can never be touched by whatever happens in following years. I have always been happy to have him in my life, but, almost a year and a half ago now, he went into hospital. I won't go in to details, needless to say he was in a very bad way. In fact we feared for his life. But, not only did he pull through, but every adversity he has faced since then, he has done so with such strength, and positivity. In a sad sort of way, he makes me thankful. For, whenever I feel things are overtaking me, and I cant cope, and it's all too much; I think of M, and his quiet strength, and I feel so goddamn proud of him, and at the same time inspired to be a better person.
Now I never meant to tell you that, but I have. So shhhh. I just can't resist telling you about him, because if you ever met him you would be proud just for the association. Of course, your responses are always more than welcome. much love xxxx

It’s too early for me to be sleepy, yet I am stuck indoors as I’m back home and all of my hometown friends are unavailable. I’m still young! I’m not ready to hang up my dancing shoes just yet. Anyhow, I’ve been thinking, and I thought I’d share my thoughts with you.

Perhaps I have too much time on my hands, or maybe I just over think situations; I’m not quite sure. What I do know is, after becoming hooked on Belle de Jour’s blog, I keep coming back to the same question. Would I? How much would it take? At the risk of perhaps sounding a little controversial, I think that the majority of people would either sell their body for money, or pay for someone else’s. What I’d really like to know is... what’s your price?

All comments most welcome...

If you have somehow stumbled across this baby blog of mine, welcome; although there is nothing much here at the moment I am only just beginning, so please, be gentle with my fragile ego! And do visit me often, I promise to write as faithfully and interestingly as I can, then, if you want to, you can let me know what you think.

As you may have guessed from the title of this little blog of mine, I am indeed a country girl, and an English one at that. I split my time between my home town and the big smoke. I wouldn't say I'm a technophobe, but I've never been into the whole blogging scene, until recently, when I stumbled on some very honest and frankly fascinating blogs that had my typing fingers itching to try it out for myself. So here it goes, you didn't ask about me but these are my thoughts, ideas and imaginings, laid out for you to see, if you so wish. I'll show you mine...